I am The Moon.

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

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At Least.

I think I have made it quite well.

My little baby started kissing the day before yesterday.
And he loves it because he knows we love it.
And he laughs while he does it.

I have made it here in one piece;
5-month-old baby, healthy and happy to a fair extent.
Maybe the reason why he is scared of loud voices is that his daddy and I fight in front of him.
But we also love each other in front of him. And we engulf him in that love.
And I think that's pretty good.

It's good to hate loud voices.
It makes you less violent.

Maybe I don't trust my husband very much, maybe I am overly extreme when it comes to being jealous, and maybe I dream of a kind of love that I always see in the movies. I have a disorder, I can't tell what is real life and what is a movie. Do they have a name for that?

But...
I have made it here, in one piece;
A husband I unconditionally love.
That is an achievement I must say.
Husbands are so hard to keep. Especially when that disorder drives them nuts.

Maybe I have had more verbal diarrhea than I wanted, and drove some people extremely angry.
And maybe I did realize that I am a judgmental person and maybe I want to bury myself and write "judgmental fucked up veryseriouslymentallyill bitch" on my tombstone.

But at least I got here in one piece.
And at least I know it.
And at least I want to try to do something about it.
And at least I'm not promising anything.
And at least I can still hope for me to differ and for this very embarrassing self-wallowing to stop.

And at least I started singing again.

Both Sides, Now.

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons evrywhere
Ive looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on evryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
Ive looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its cloud illusions I recall
I really dont know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As evry fairy tale comes real
Ive looked at love that way

But now its just another show
You leave em laughing when you go
And if you care, dont let them know
Dont give yourself away

Ive looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its loves illusions I recall
I really dont know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Ive looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say Ive changed
Well somethings lost, but somethings gained
In living evry day

Ive looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its lifes illusions I recall
I really dont know life at all

- Joni Mitchell-

Loreena Mckennit - Bonny Swans.