"Good job! You're finally learning how to be a player!!!"
her words kind of sat there in my mind for the rest of the drive home. Of course I have learned to laugh away pathetic words over the years of suffering. I was telling her my story with Mr. Sunshine and this was her response. Let me tell you the story first.
A week ago I had to drop off letters at the post office for Mr. Lazy Butt Sunshine. As he bent down and begged me and said "Allah yirda 3alaykee" seven million times I just said ok ok! And took the letters and off I went. Before you start criticizing me as a push over or something, I didn't do it for him. He and I have reached this point where we just do things for each other as friends/co-workers/whatever we are. So as I waited in that long irritating line for my # to arrive at the post office, a friend of mine (male) noticed me and came over to say hi. He was already being taken care of with one cashier so he talked to me as he waited for his packages to be labeled. He looked at what I was holding and said, "Is that all you're here for?" And i looked at the letters and said, "Yeah but 5 are missng stamps." And he says, "Oh my god. Give those to me..and he took em and took care of the price n the sending.
When I returned back to the office I quickly started working again. About 10 minutes later Mr. Sunshine noticed my return and came in to talk to me. "So did they get sent?" I looked at him and smiled without saying a thing. And he says, "Is that a yes? So how much were they?" I was laughing now and he was curious. So all I told him was a summarized version of the real story--not a lie. I told him as I waited for my turn a man saw me and offered to take the envelopes off my hand and pay for my stamps. He was SURPRISED and started to ask me who this guy was and if we exchanged contacts...etc etc etc. It was funny just watching him wonder...
But as she complimented me for my professional advancement in "hard to get-ology" I felt insulted. All I wanted to tell her was, "Sweetie, I'm NOT advancing in hard to get-ology...I'm advancing in bitterness. It hurts to wait for 6 months for the person you truly fell in love with and not realize what he feels. It's bitterness now and I have already established great comfort with him so now--I don't fear being honest or angry or rude or nice or ugly..."
But instead I laughed off her words and continued to drive down that very crowded night road--remembering that today he texted asking about my whereabouts because I was not on time.
CURIOUS???
Thursday, December 4, 2008
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Salaam MMW, hope you're ok inshaAllah, haven't had an update from you in a while.
As Salaamu 'alaikum.
Do not be bitter, because bitterness is only going to affect you and not the person you are waiting for. Instead make dua and NEVER give up!!
I'm sure after that Mr Sunshine was intrigued. But wait for him to come to you inshaAllah.
I waited over ten years for a good man. I felt like I must have been such an ugly worthless woman because no man ever showed interest in me. It was so frustrating and weird!! Meanwhile all around me everyone was getting married. But I eventually realized that it was my faith that put men off ~ even fellow Catholic men! That was hard to accept.
I was just about to become a nun when I finally met a wonderful man! I mean, I had literally just left a convent after having stayed there for a month as an aspirant.
Talk about the eleventh hour...
@Coffee Catholic:
What a story! I hope you're happy :)
Sometimes good things take time. And if you dont get it in this life, ask Allah to give you something better in akhira.
Sabr is a very useful thing. Hard to cultivate though, but once you have it, it is an asset.
Maybe you should make hijrah?
I say that to everyone. We have the same problem of no decent muslim men in my home country. So i left. Big world out there!
where did u you go habibti?
At the mosque I like to attend, they have food after jummah. Even though I noticed that everyone in line was male (and the servers were all male), I didn't see a separate offering for women so I stepped into the line. Immediately, one of the servers intervened and directed me out of the line and took my order ahead of everyone else's. Can't even mix in a line for food at that mosque. heh
Salamoalaikom, sister. I wish you well. I hear you!
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